Freddie Roach, Manny Pacquiao's Hall of Fame trainer, says that preparing the Filipino fighter for his bout with Floyd Mayweather Jr. has been saving him from suicide.
Roach, 55, told England's The Telegraph the medication he takes for Parkinson's disease gives him suicidal thoughts. He said helping Pacquiao try to end Mayweather's 47-win unbeaten record is saving his life.
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"I have a new neurologist and I told him that sometimes I think about killing myself," Roach said. "He asked me why and I said: ‘It's just f— difficult sometimes dealing with this s—.' He said maybe I should see a psychologist.
"I said, 'Doc, I'm just kidding. I might think about it but I would never hurt myself. I am not that brave.'"
May 2 marks the day Pacquiao will finally get his chance to end Mayweather's streak.
Roach said leading Pacquiao's traning regiments is the perfect distraction for his illness.
"I don't get sick too often. When I'm sick, I just go to the gym and it goes away," he said. "With Parkinson's, sometimes you wake up and think: 'Why the f— did they pick me?' But, you know, that's part of life.
"Some of the medications do cause depression and so forth and some mornings I'll think about bad things. But then I'll go to the gym and go to work and everything bad goes away."